This is one of my favorite. My own made tuna and lettuce sandwich, sometimes with cheese but most of the time just spicy tuna and lots lettuce in a triple deck whole wheat bread.

I miss cooking though. ^^ I can only cook when I'm inspired. Haha. Silly me. xD

Aw... I've been listening to M-flo and Bennie K a lot lately. Not that I don't like them but I'm more into Jrock/Jpop.


Ok, this is my last.fm music profile. And yes the username sounds silly, I can't think of any reason why it's called "iloveyou-aya". I mean not sooo me using a different name, actually it's my first time using another
 name. I made it because...err... it's a tribute to a very good friend. xP

Just got home a while ago from Ongaku. Good thing I went to the event, it was really fun. Though I was alone all the time sitting at the table because Luciel is busy preparing the stuff for their band. Ack, Kensou didn't even bothered to call me or text me last night and Gangrel was too drunk to be dragged. I ended up going alone eventhough I hesitated at first because it was raining hard last night.

I enjoy the Ongaku, really. Everytime I have free time I try to attend as much as possible. Frankly, I was the only one who went there solo (for all i know). Most people are in groups/couples. I sat at the front most table, near the stage. After the mid part of the event I sat near the bar counter and ordered iced tea since I never drink alcoholic beverages.

They are giving raffle prizes like anime designed notebooks and game goodie bags during the entire event. But the major raffle prize was a Canon powershot digital camera. You need to stay until the last band performed because the camera will be raffle drawn at the end of the event. Almost half of the audience didn't managed to stay 'til the end and left. Few from the remaining audience were almost half sleep (hey it's almost 2am) despite the heavy rock metal songs played by the rest of the bands. I waited, not because of the prize camera but because I really enjoy Japanese music.

I ordered another glass of red iced tea. I was a bit hungry then but when I saw the menu most of the food finger foods are hard stuff like nachos and chicken wings. I can't eat nachos since I'm wearing my rubber bands. So another glass of iced tea for me until I had enough. Three glasses of iced tea with an empty stomach, make it four glasses since the first drink was free. And my bill... it's not cheap hahaha.

Just woke up.

I'll meet up Kensou later at megamall and meet up the rest of the guys at the restobar. We'll be attending our close friend's gig, Luciel, vocalist of Rotschreck. Though I regulary attend Ongaku, tonight is different. Kei-kun will also be there. Nyahaha. Finally, after five years. Lol.

Ja ne~

Watched Nana and Nana 2 Movie last night.

Went to bed at 5:30am, and yeah while the sun is rising. >_<

Woke up at 9:30am, back to bed at 10:30, woke up at 1:30pm.

Currently watching Honey and Clover Movie.

3:51am Thursday may 08, 2008 Philippines
9:41pm Wednesday May 07, 2008 Netherlands
5:51am Thursday may 08, 2008 Australia, some part

still can't sleep... bah. I'll be leaving later for school and I feel like a zombie.

So much of life's drama. Sigh~

Just this afternoon my thesis classmate told me that our professor resigned. Acccckkk (this is not happening). Huhu. Now I need to reschedule my oral defense presentation. And it means I need to extend more time haggling university professors with their precious time. Damn.

If I only knew this will going to happen I should have accepted the job that has been offered to me. My pet Gangrel recommended me to his boss as IT technical staff which is very good because I won't undergo initial hiring process like interviews and stuff. He'll going to hire me directly...but guess what? I declined the offer simply because it will be conflict to my oral defense at school which is not happening because of that professor. And he left me with incomplete grade. Gah, I don't like him. How I can enroll my Thesis B while having an incomplete grade at Thesis A? Sigh~ I'm stuck again.

I feel like everything I do is not going anywhere. Like when I started my life all over again and learned to be independent again... but now it's taking too much time and energy and I'm not even sure if it's still worth it. I mean of course it's worth with but it's just delaying and delaying... and somehow I'm getting tired.

There are times like this that my loneliness kicks in. I miss my family. I wanted to talk to my mom about it...about everything that's happening to me. However, I don't want to give her worries and just add more burden to her. Tsk. Now, I finally realizing that I don't belong to this country.

Whew!

痛いです。。。

My eyes are like this @_@ I think. It's almost 3am here and I want to go to bed. My body is a bit tired but my mind is still working. Gawd. I've been reading a lot of things lately. From books about making money and be financially independent to learning new languages (deutsch and dutch), memorizing some daily dose of my kanji to reading religious articles, forum about different cultures and random stuff about life in general.

I think I need sunlight ne? Because I realized I declined two dates with no valid reasons except to go online... and shop alone (because most guys don't like to go shopping hahaha) >_< Oh I remember, I've been shopping this past few weeks that's why I rarely go out now a days because I spent most of my allowance hahaha. Good thing it's our summer vacation so I have no really use of my allowance except for shopping. Tee hee. xD

But I feel good about myself. Learning new things is quite fulfilling. Meeting new people as well and making new friends.

Enough of tonight. I still need to wake up at 4am Philippine time.

お休みなさい！～　
Goede nacht~

Done a lot of things today. Went to church. Attend church meeting. Bought some grocery after. Fixing Diane's laptop while listening to my fav jmusic and drinking mochaccino. Heh, yep not iced tea. Because I'm kinda sleepy now. I need to rest early tonight (maybe 1am XD) because I'm going to school tomorrow. Thesis thesis thesis. Whew!

But there's also sad part of today. Hmm... I just hope I'll be ready then...god willing.

どうも有難う神様！～

Heh. Dear someone. Today I had a series of things... let's just say accidents.

First, I think I cut myself while opening the canned tuna a while ago. I was trying to make some tuna and cheese sandwich with lettuce. I didn't know I have it 'til I saw my ring finger turned into black all of a sudden. I thought I got lead posion or something but heh, I'm just exaggerating I think. Stil I can feel the stinginess in my right finger and yes it is still black. ><

Second, I was trying to fix my cousin's laptop when my tea mug fell on the floor. Damn it was my favorite mug afterall and now it's broken. While cleaning "the remains" of my mug I made a couple of cuts which I didn't noticed, I just saw my fingers are bleeding. >_< Yay!~ After throwing it to the garbage can, I went back to fix my cousin's laptop.

I can't access the cds that he gave me so I need to use my own dvd/cd drive. So, ok I was about to open it but I can't find it in my explorer and I found out that it was unplug. I plug it in and tried it on but it was not running. I unplugged it again but acccckkkk... the ide ribbon cable head left at the pin of the mother board. How can this be? I tried pulling it off with my tweezers but I made a couple of more bruises at my right hand. It took me 20 minutes to take out the head of the ide cable.

I'm just too persistent to having my dvd drive work so I tried connecting my extra ide ribbon cable again at the pin and tried it out again but it's not working. I pulled it out again but damn! I made the same mistake again. The ide head was left again at the pin. Grrrrr.... I'm really pissed off right now but at the same time I was laughing. I'm laughing at my silliness. Hahaha.

Updated: I got grounded while connecting this desktop at the wall socket. Heh. I just laugh at it though.
And when I went to the kitchen to make some tea I saw my mug at the cabinet...weeeee. XD I didn't know that my mom sent me two identical mugs. Now, I'm happy. Hahaha. I just need to buy extra ide cables when I go out and pray that it won't get stuck again. Lol.

Updated again: Waaaa... I stepped on a piece of ceramic glass and my left foot is bleeding now. I thought I clean it enough but there was a very small piece at my carpet and accidentally stepped on it. It's really painful. I need to get that piece of glass or else it might sink deep and I may not get rid it. Y_Y

It was deleted for two weeks or so but after some thinking, I feel I don't want to delete it afterall. Memories are somehow kept here - good and bad - still it's something that I can look back. And something that I can put my thoughts and hopes for tomorrow. For that being said, tadaima!~
and hugs to all. xD

I have lot of things in my mind right now. In my heart, I feel happy. This year... it's one of the best years in my life and I'm not really sure why I just feel happy. Yes, single and happy. Hihihi.

Most people are asking why I don't have a boyfriend. They say I don't look like I don't have any. Lol. Can't be someone be single and happy? It's my choice to be single and to be happy as well. Hahaha. I just love to live and love people.

Gosh. I never been so eager to live everyday in my life. I feel like everyday is a new blessing (and indeed it is XD) and that today is my last day on earth. Heh. Carpe diem! It's like always living at the edge, always doing your best. Damn, it feels great!

 'Til later~ ^^

Doei.

Brother Eli Soriano in one of his ‘Bible Exposition’ where he answers people’s questions regarding salvation taking it directly from the Bible.

( Bible expo vid )

Love Letters Lyrics by Diana Krall

The sky may be starless
The night may be moonless
But deep in my heart
I know that you love me
You love me, because you told me so

Love letters straight from your heart
Keep us so near while we're apart
I'm not alone in the night
When I can have all the love you write

I memorize every line
I kiss the name that you sign
And darling, then I read again
Right from the start
Love letters straight from your heart

I memorize every line
I kiss the name that you sign
And darling, then I read again
Right from the start
Love letters straight from your heart

It's been raining the whole day and I just stay at home and rest. I watched Jdorama Pride [プライド]. It's kinda romantic with a nice twist. Heh? I remember how to be in love again. Haha. *roflmao*

I didn't notice that it was already 1 a.m. Lately, I found myself doing things that I never tried before and returning to the things I've been doing from the past like cross stitching. Now that I have more time - only thesis to worry about - I'm trying to improve myself by learning some new stuff and get really involve to charity works. This is way better than partying all night I guess. Besides, I'm not really dating someone right now. I dunno if being loyal is good or maybe my loyally is just way different. Blame it to my heart I guess.

I might attend online game summit tomorrow after the church if I still have time. But maybe not. I'm not sure, I'll decide tomorrow, I mean later 'coz it's already Sunday.

Yoshi!~ Oyasumi nasai to the one I love!~ *wink*

Every month I suffer from dysmenorrhea. Eww bloody days. Yeah, it gives me cramps for days and if I get lucky I also get migraine just like tonight. I usually lay on my bed and rest for days but today is different, I ended up cleaning my room - changing my sheets and arranged my books and paper stuff. Somehow I forgot the pain in my lower abdomen however I'm beginning to feel the pain in my head, I know it's going to be a migraine and it's already building up. *sob*

I've talked to a friend a while ago who asked for my help. As much as possible I don't want to turn down people who ask for my help especially if I have something to give or lend. And no I'm not rich, I just save some in case other people might need it. I've learned that it's better to give than to receive. I just wish that I can also be able to solve my own issues and problems.

...but I'm thankful to God for whatever I have.

I went to the birthday party of my classmate in thesis. I got home late as usual. I'm trying to get occupied and be really busy. I don't want to contemplate 'coz I get baggy eyes in the morning. I wanted to go to bed and rest but I can't sleep. I tried exercising but it's no use and it's almost 5am now.

I've been thinking of things that happened to my life, like self-evaluating myself. I dunno, maybe it's nice once in a while to sit down and have reflection to yourself. I gives me tears but somehow I can release my tensions and troubles through crying.

Being single is fun. But being alone is another story. Alone, away from family and love ones. At the end of the day no matter how happy and successful you are but you have no one to share it with is useless I guess. Sigh~

I wanted to have someone who will listen to me and not judge me. Someone to talk with anything under the sun... to share my life with.

Been loving this videos since I saw it a couple of years ago. The song is catchy though it's Korean. Animation is good. Sugoi desu ne!~


( There she is... )

Here's the link to their official website. Enjoy!~ ^_^

As this year ends, I realized how happy I am to be alive. Even in this temporary world where inequity arises and justice is not properly serve, I'm still thankful how lucky I am. Just waking up early in the morning, feeling the sun ray at my skin coming from my window makes me feel good.

Even if sometimes I feel down, I feel that it was necessary for me to appreciate life in its fullest. I cherish every moment of my life, my happy moments even my bluest times. Although past is already in the past, I can look back and see through the things that happened to me and learned from it.

I've seen the good and the bad. I've felt triumph and defeat, ups and downs. Been loved, be loved, got hurt and yet continuing to love. Somehow I can say that I'd survived the difficulties of life. But I owe it to God, everything I have, everything I will have. I can  find strength in Him when I'm weak, when even my friends or love ones can't be there for me. Soushite... doumo arigatou gozaimasu kami-sama!~

I have a flu since yesterday. I really don't feel good right now. All I do is to watch movie at my computer, play one of my favorite song "Knocks me off my feet" by Stevie Wonder. Oh well... it brings back good memories. Just hearing this song makes me feel good,it relaxes me somehow.

Today, people celebrates what they call Christmas but what's the true meaning of Christmas anyway? I find that Xmas now is uber commercialized. The real spirit of it was gone if not blurry.